Dilaa

It was on a Saturday night in June when this thing happened. I was on my way home after hanging out with some friends at a cafe. I rode my motorcycle while following after one of my friends who was also riding her motorcycle in the back (because we were heading in the same direction). On our way on the road, at some point, I felt something wrong with my motorcycle, I couldn't shift the gear until I felt it didn't move anymore. So I thought the chain fell off on the road. It turned out I was right, the chain fell off on the road. I panicked a little wondering where the chain fell. So I put my motorcycle on the edge of the road for a while. I walked back while looking for my motorcycle chain. After around 50 meters away, I finally found it in the middle of the road haha.

Tonight, I accidentally caught my little brother smoking cigarettes. It started when I go to his room all of sudden to get a USB cable but didn't let him know that I was about to come. Then after I arrived there, I saw him smoking and turned his back right away so he could put down the cigarettes. I was a little shocked, because I knew that he had ever a cigarettes before, but all this time he always told me that he's not doing that anymore, that he already stopped. But still used the pods, tho. I put my trust in him, and at that time I was very grateful that my brother listened to me, and that he was able to avoid that while his surroundings were some people who were into smoking as well. But tonight the trust that I already put on him has already broken. I do understand that this is his life that I can't control, and he is able to make his own choices. Furthermore, it isn't even something that is forbidden in our beliefs. But despite all those things, I just want him ...

Last night I dreamed about you. We weren't strangers anymore, we went out with some people. I was with my colleagues and you were with yours. But out of nowhere, we were all heading to watch some kind of concert. The concert was strangely held beside a hospital (idk why tho). Our group somehow gathered around, and we were all chatting while queuing before the concert. While we were having a chitchat, somehow you spilled a cup of coffee which was mine. And then you offered yourself to buy another since I was enjoying it before. You bought me some kind of Americano coffee but with a taste of Avocado(?) when the truth is I do not like Avocado haha. But I received it gladly and you also added some writing on it (I forgot what that was). But I guess in my dream I found it very sweet of you. We somehow talk a lot more than before. While we're all queuing, you told us that you need to go to the hospital to see your mom, because she was sick. You went back and forth, to monitor your mo...

On this day 26 years ago, a little baby girl was born, named Dila Rahma Putri. Her dad named her Dila after a young girl whom he met a few years before. He said that the young girl was really nice, polite, and religious. The rest of the name was made by him. So he said that the meaning of her full name was "You were born as a daughter who brings grace" with also the hope she would be nice, polite, and religious as well. What a beautiful name he gave. Her mom and dad raised her very well. She was thought to be independent, caring, honest, and grateful. They gave her so many values in life that she applied in her daily life. So for her, they were her biggest influencers in life.  She grew up as an independent being, she was brave and strong. Her journey in life brings he to this phase. Especially after her dad passed away. She at first felt that she was forced to be mature earlier because she had to. But she was grateful for that, hoping that she could help her family through s...

I will never be enough for them :)

  Tanggal 27 Maret udah buat rencana mau nulis tentang Archie. Mau nulis betapa senengnya punya kucing lagi setelah sekian lama, mau nulis betapa tingkah laku arci begitu menyenangkan sampai-sampai jadi pelepas penat ketika lelah pulang kerja. Tapi sekarang arci nya udah ngga ada... Sudah berapa kali rawat kucing, terus aja mati.. Jadi mempertanyakan diri sendiri, aku sebenernya bisa atau ngga ya untuk urus kucing? dan apa siap? Sakitnya lagi ketika memutuskan untuk rawat kucing, disaat itulah harus komit untuk bertanggungjawab atas sesosok nyawa. Oleh karena itu di awal udah cukup optimis rawat arci dengan dalih insyaallah sudah lebih sanggup untuk biaya-in beberapa hal. Beda dengan kucing-kucing sebelumnya.  Sudah mengupayakan yang terbaik, tapi qadarullah belum berjodoh lagi untuk bisa lama sama arci. 3 bulan kebelakang, aku senenggg sekalii.. walaupun kerasa sangat singkat terima kasih ya arcii, maaf juga belum bisa usaha yang paling maksimal buat arcii

          I am actually not a book person. But back in 2021 I was kind of 'forced' to finish 3 books that are written in English. Of all 3 books, there was one book that got my interest a lot more than the other, I would say my favorite though. The title of the book is The Secret By Rhonda Byrne which talks about The Law of Attraction. Here’s a little summary of the book that I wrote back then when I read it: Thoughts become things Change the way you think to a positive way so it will lead you to have the life that you want, the Magnificent Version of You It is important to feel good Your thoughts and feelings create your life When you’re in a bad feeling, it can cause your day in any way Find that “Secret Shifters” of you to instantly change your emotion from bad to good feeling Trust, believe, and have faith Create your day by thinking the way you want it to be Expectations are a powerful attractive force Visualize everything you want or a life you want t...

    I felt very happy this morning, I kinda get out of my comfort zone. I had a morning walk by myself and it was new for me that I went to that place alone, because long time ago I used to go there with my friends. It is actually a stadium inside my campus. I came there at 6.30, and at first there weren't many people there, It was only me and 3 other people. It feels like we rent the whole place only for us haha. I walked for almost 7km and when I was resting I got to talk with an older woman. She told some stories about her family especially her granddaughter whom she raised since she was little. Because her granddaughter is an orphan. Her mom left her when she was only 9 months old, and her dad passed away when she was 6. Now she is 19, she is pretty, she is well educated and I think she had a good life with her grandmother and her other families. It was really nice to talk to her. Again, from talking to people I learned about something. That's why I love to talk to people....